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Resolutions
I guess it's the new year so I should make some resolutions. Which like last year are the same.
Lose Weight - Last years 165 lb
This year 162 lb.
Learn Mandarin - still not fluent. But I did manage to join a Chinese church, go to China twice.
Listen more - Utterly failed at that one, and got asked to seek professional help, to deal with the consequences. So now how am I going to deal with it. Continue posting stuff on my website about myself. So much for that... Go figure.
My New Ethos
What matters
Things are changing, people are getting married later, if ever. The idea of the family and what it means is being redefined. This is both good and bad, it means that we finally have the freedom to define it on our own terms with things
What I'm looking for in life. A life that that's compelling, emotionally satisfying, providing a great experience. But it doesn't have to make sense. That's fine. I will chose to invest where I think it matters.
Real Value
It's not surprising that I'm skeptical and cynical. It's hard to fool people anymore. People will see through insincerity. Even the poorest people know that. Trust, absolute clarity.
There's a subconscious way which we all attribute value to things, both physical and relational. Cost and price are a consideration in this equation where we somehow determine value, but cost alone, it is not even the most important, there's a deeper aspect to value. Something that transcends the instant. Something we should hold dear, instead of simply sacrificing it to the idol of efficiency and low prices.
Relationships. This is what matters, this is what people see. This is what people remember. Money, I'll always make more of.
I will not be pigeonholed. People may not understand me, I may do irrational things. But such inconsistencies are not a problem. Just as parking a Mercedes SUV in a Walmart is not inconsistent. Neither is being both generous and stingy at the same time.
Be open minded, and not dogmatic. Goals for the world in an increasingly pluralistic society. Understand others, instead of staying on your high horse of virtue, come down to their level. Be changed, be moved often times it is not you who will change them, but the person which you cannot stand, who will change you.
We live in strange, exciting times, and there are times when prayer is not enough.
Providing real value. Searching for real meaning. Embracing the constant pace of change.
January 20, 2004
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