The things we think but do not say - a mission statement

Missionary, why Christianity is still western imperialism. Yet amidst the cultural destruction, there is message of hope.

30 years West, 30 years east. - Living on the other side of the ocean, to create balance.
An engineer trapped in a Missionary's body.

Reasons - My own thoughts on what I might want to do with my life.

What not to do. More ponderings on the missions movement.

Religious Imperialism - An article about Christianity

CCFC - The church I currently Attend

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Jerry Maguire's Mission Statement

The things we think and do not say: thoughts of a sports attorney

There's a scene in the beginning of this movie where the protagonist has a realization. Although he's lived the life he's wanted to. Somewhere along the line, his dream became perverted. Lost in the endless day to day struggle, and the pursuit of material weath, he has forgotten why he does what he does. He has disconnected his life from his inner passions. Now suddenly wide awake, he begins to write. In the course of a sleepless night he writes down his thoughts, his dreams, the events in his past which have shaped him, and the current messed up state of things.

For the first time he's written from his heart, and putting on paper his entire naked soul. Simultaneously, he's a prophet, a lunatic, and at Kinkos printing out a hundred copies for all to read.

It takes the rest of the movie for his soul to emerge, and for him to discover who he might be.

Like all romantic movies he convinces a single person to follow him. Ultimatley this will be the woman who completes him in life. Though the rest of the movie, he is betrayed, she leaves, he comes back, he finds himself, he inspires others and and we begin to see that his little memo has inspired others to give up the petty struggles in their lives and try to be better.

Read Cameron Crowe's, entire Jerry Maguire tirade ... the script is at the end too, if you enjoy hearwarming stories like that as well.


I've had a lot of sleepless nights like that. This is what I came up with.

What kind of writing is so powerful that most people are inspired by it but do not act out of fear for losing what they cannot possibly hold. Once I drempt of writing such a note, and sending it across the country to a friend. That somehow she would read it, and that I would say

"Look, don't do this. You're better than this, you don't have to settle for a life of mediocrity.
I once heard your dreams, who who you wanted to become, and the things which you thought you could obtain.
You could be so much more, you deserve better. You don't have to settle."

Instead I watched it go past, I watched as our lives went separate ways. And although we still talk and get together occasionally, I always look back and wonder what things might have been. I know it wouldn't have been easy, and I wouldn't have become the person I am today.

I do not pretend that my writing has the power to convince people of my ideals, or that it has the power to move people. It doesn't. All that is immaterial. It only needs to be able to move my own heart, and only by writing truly from my heart. I know I have to show my raw naked soul. And expose vulnerabilites that may penetrate the carefully crafted armor I have set around me. Even knowing these risks. I chose to carry onward.

Know who you are, and be true to yourself.

modified 9.12.2003